{Notebook}

stuck in my head and I can't get you out. what a nuisance.
really want to lose this constant hand on my mouth
when I try to be quiet and trap down these feelings that're brewing...
brew in my right hand. I'd rather be tipsy than witness you standing against me
in the past, it was iffy, but I can't go back and fix that so I'm drifting
downwards, on downers and bong-hits.
round of applause for this coward is not an option. the laughing stock of town is what I am
lying in my bed and rainy days is always the climate
lightning striking down for my mindless ways...
baby, why couldn't it be fixed? wouldn't it be insignificant how things were before?
I should burn for sure but, you holding on might hurt you more
let's turn the course, forget the bridge, and take a flight instead
fly into the sky. I pledge to do things right without the side effects..
of my selfish desires mixed into the pot,
I pledge to not follow trends, but confide my effort time and time again
and if you can't accept me pouring out to you, I understand
I'll walk away from your life and let us be nothing...
damn...

{Switch}

I think about you in my past time
Know I always think about the last time
Try to put the pieces together/ you said forever
Try to put the pieces together/ Now I know better

{Switch}

I was thinking the other day/ thinking what could I say
That could make things right/ take back all those fights
I was thinking it needs to rain/ wash away all this pain
Second chance in life/ swear I’ll do it right

Know that I’m scared inside/ deny have to much pride
Stand up no time to hide/ try to see the upside
Always seem to collide/ why can’t I just provide
Instead I’m just denied/ eye’s teary opened wide

Laying here over thinking things/ look what thinking brings
Sleepless nights starless skies/ stars in her eye’s
Saying I wish I was her king/ wish that was my ring
On her finger apologize/ so traumatized

I was thinking the other day/ thinking I caused this pain
How can I make it right/ when all we do is fight
I was thinking about that may/ when the sky turned grey
There wasn’t any light/ and you held me so tight

{Alex-Ander}

"Hold it tight" eventually means "let it go"
Nothing lasts forever, we should've never said hello
A moment to meet, eternity to say goodbye

"So a heart full of worry is the way I'll die"

Everything will be okay, someday, you got the potential to be alright
You and I didn't connect, you be you, and I'm gonna move on with my life
You said it in a sarcastic tone, you always knew you were better than me
But I guess opposites don't attract 'cause you're on a different level than me

So go ahead, sing your favourite hate songs and picture me
But keep in the back of your head I'm not the only guy with negativity
Maybe someday, I'll choose to be wise and finally go and take your advice
For now, I'll do what I do best and live with this mistake for a life