The bottle gets hollow/ my mind starts racing Don’t know who to follow/ sit can’t keep pacing Chasing liquor with beer/ And I keep spacing Out there goes another year/ this time I’m facing Demons. I still hear the screaming Dreaming. Then why am I bleeding Weeping. Looks like I’m not sleeping Leaving. But that’s so misleading Shots lets do lots/ black out lets forget caught by the cops/ back to the regrets Shot for the top/ jack yelled out a threat Stop so I thought/ yack no well not yet Let’s have some more/ pour me another Trying to forget your face/ and this place Let’s have some more/ pour me another Crying cause I can’t erase/ my mistakes -Hook-Switch- Sick/ I have this addiction Pills/ I have no restriction Trick/ Fall for my fiction Sick/ I have this addiction -Verse II- Preformed By- Illuminatic I can't leave, and I feel myself twisted up. Alcohol, pills, everything I mix it up. I sit down, and I'm waiting still for the rush. It doesn't matter though, no, cause she's not enough. I can't leave... She pulls me back in. I can't breath. It's the proof, in that gin. It's the truth. And then poof, I'm that sick. Another night, with this bottle I'm stuck with. Getting colder. I'm not sober. Fuck everything, it's not over. It's the way that I think. It's the way that she drinks. It's the way that I feel when I sink in. Two shots of this liquor that I'm deep in. I pour another, with the hopes that I'll leap in. I got another I could mix in. Fuck it all, it's my youth that I'm ditch-in. -Switch- Sick/ I have this addiction Pills/ I have no restriction Sick of falling apart/ bottle after bottle It’s taking my heart/ always feel so awful Sick/ I have this addiction Pills/ I have no restriction Black out won’t listen/ whiskey sour whistling Black out and pissing/ thanks to this addiction

Listen. I’m hiding in the shadows/ I’m keeping my distance Don’t want to disrupt anything/ or scare anyone Always fighting this battle/ because I’m so twisted And I’m still always resisting/ that’s what I have none Nothing the same difference/ will you just fucking listen Take a step back/ this hit and just relax Everyone cheats the system/ cry and say they’re the victim It’s grey and black/ alone got my own back I’m out of sight out of mind/ I’m out of my mind Twisted I’m one of a kind/ always on the grind I’m out of sight out of mind/ But your all so blind Twisted I’m one of a kind/ Always in my prime I’m about to stand my ground/ snatch up that fucking crown I’ll hold my position/ that’s my fucking mission About to go round for round/ watch these fucking haters drown I’m full of ambition/ watch the transition

I can feel my heart cave in/ and my blood get thin I’m starting to lose wind/ I guess I can’t win In the background sitting/ I feel it slipping My pulse keeps skipping/ so is this living Another fight the other night/ the thunder strikes on sunday night Shit creek and no paddle/ a back and fourth battle Out of spite with summer light/ the color bright the lovers right To much of a hassle/ jump into my capsule Travel. See all the castles/ break away from the cattle Embrace. where we will awake/ insane but just for today...cause Everything burns And the world still turns And everything burns I won’t ever learn I won’t ever learn And everything burns And the world still turns And everything burns [Verse Two]{Performed by Illuminatic} It's still burning. 2nd degree, when she mentions me. My heart convulses. I'm divulging what was meant to be. I'm trying to succeed, I'm wired to believe. That you are the only person that was truly meant for me. Maybe one day, I'll break the habit. And leave this cage. Laying on this mattress, thinking back to when we layed. together. Never been worse, but I've never been better. ever. Fuck what you thought, but I never say never. I'm leaving here. Hopefully in one piece. But before I go, let me say this one thing. -Bridge- And everything burns/ I won’t ever learn I can feel my heart cave in/ and my blood get thin And everything burns/ I won’t ever learn Insane but just for today/ okay right where we lay -Hook-

Intro- It’s a long walk home/ It’s cold and I’m stoned Watching the trees bend from the breeze/ and all of the leaves blow Afraid and alone/ there’s snow my flesh bones Depressed just another disease/ watch here’s the tornado -Verse one- It’s a long walk home/ It’s cold and I’m stoned Another night with some snow/ watch it all blow It’s a no parking zone/ I’m told change that tone But it’s a fact that’s known/ I’m cold like some stone Heart frozen to the bone/ it’s always saying don’t I want to paint a picture/ express all my thoughts I can when I’m alone/ and for you I just won’t I want to down this pitcher/ guess I’ll have a shot Looks like the devils about to win/ watch me sin Spin-puke another gross binge/ all the kids cringe Looks like the devils got the upper hand/ I’m his fan Stan-it’s time to expand/ take on this land I want to paint a picture/ dreams become reality So light up a swisher/ beam up that morality It’s cold and I’m stoned/ It’s okay cause I’m home I’m told I’m alone/ It’s okay on this throne Hook{Performed by Notebook} buy another round. write another poem. you know what? I'm so done I run like a bloody nose, from insecurities I used you like a crutch, and I’m weak in the knees oh no... I run like a bloody nose x3 Oh no.... -verse 2- Let me get inside your head/ scribble some images Instances where I was limitless/ burning down old bridges Let me get inside your head/ describe some villages Primitive but they invasion it/ traveling distances And now I’m standing here alone/ outside and I’m cold A disease infected to the bone/ with a heart of coal I’m frozen harder then some stone/ rock with not a soul A man that’s lost all of his hope/ with nothing to hold Confused and I dug my own hole/ away from the road Abused and now i can’t let go/ should’ve long ago Standing with a bloody nose/ everybody knows Can’t have highs without the lows/ that’s how we all grow I want to paint a picture/ express all my thoughts But can’t with this liquor/ depressed with these shots Downing all of these pitchers/ A mess so we fought I’m writing down some scriptures/ a test you were caught -hook- Verse Three{Performed by Notebook} why's it hard to let go and not deny it, though I'm frightened by the echo? so, I stuff it down, fight, and grind the threshold to my surprise, the higher that it climbs and gets repressed no hold could tighten up its grip and continue to bind the vice and press lower... my arms are feeling lifeless; they dangle beside me siphoning cable to drive a body of pain through an I.V why me? the pity is killing me quicker than execution retribution for the death consuming all of my flesh and loose-ends you win, you win; I'm tapping out and moving on the last laugh? you can have it, 'cause I'm through with balling fists all I did was try to be the bigger guy and never quit, but times have changed wisdom likes to tell me not to get trapped inside your cage don't swim towards a current full of tidal waves don't grip a sword and curse the fool igniting pain it lives to hurt your nerves with grueling mind games side-frame with the flash on; don't turn your eyes stay focused. they know this. won't hear or see my evil, believe or fear those invisible people here that speak through following the marks that I left in the sand when I thought that if I walked, they would dread every step, disconnect, never again poke at me; but sadly, they attempt when they can; and bring all this past baggage to the forefront gore, blood, and torn guts sprayed across my door but, I tell 'em give me more, son. do it 'til you're emptied out a lack of fear and letting go is my obsession now

-Verse one-Lady Essence I roll it out, smoke it out, Or hit the vape pipe 5 am late night Riding til the day light I hit the scenic route Burnin on the meanest truth Turning on the curb and I'm swerving that's why I lean to you I'm Undefeated, unseated, Fly the meanest coupe, Nah I'm only kidding, catch me spitting on the meanest stoop, Son I'm blunted, I'm keeping it one hundred, I'm leaving these bums nothin, Smoke weed til the Suns coming, I feel it in my veins though, Wheelin in my lane slow, Revealing where the pain goes, You don't want it, Don't get it, I let the rain blow, Watch me when I paint flows, Colors like the rainbow, I been higher, since they made my rent higher, Now I use my pen fire, To pay for this empire, This one bedroom apartment, Where I spark shit, Write dope rhymes and let em call me an artist Hook-Switch My eye’s are dilated/ brains being invaded Chill cause we faded/ Chill with the hatred No reason to hate kid/ Don’t know what fame is But want to be famous/ or at least taste it -Verse two-Switch I was about to smash it/ or smash shit So bitch you better blast it/ that last hit Forget about the past skit/ we’re passed it So why’s this only half lit/ this grass spliff Look it’s going canoeing/ don’t know what your doing I have that moonshine brewing/ look I’m only human Full of all the same fluid/ except I’m more fluent Well I mean I’m more lucid/ so I don’t mind loosing Clear mind I still shot cupid/ Weed and T.V that’s muted Because this heart’s been wounded/ Mary jane I’ll consume it Teach me and I’ll be the student/ one that’s not a nuisance Laid back with this big sac/ saying this and that Fade until it’s all black/ slaying the whole pack Shade with this lonely track/ laying on my back Made myself this snack/ staying in this shack Blaze I have the grass/ waiting for that pass -hook- -Verse three-Notebook step into the building and my presence and you can feel it shit, my necklance ain't a million, but I bet my game'll kill 'em never waste a second. illin' 'til I exit. give 'em chills and goosebumps winter-coats can't protect ya' when it's frigid giving frost-bite. swagger that could make your crew apartheid do it all night. Runnin' it, no Pharcyde ya'll hype and nothing more. this is what I call Life steal your Spotlight. guess it's gonna' be a Dark (k)Night... Christian Bale. Pin the tail on the donkey and wish him well My existence is enough to cause a living Hell Many fail to mimic what I can execute so easily Made a career out of being me and it's freaking sweet U MAD? Well, that's too bad. Newsflash: Nobody gives a fuck about you, man We blew past that new trash. They're looking like, "who's that?" Learn some manners 'for you address me or get your cool snatched...

{Notebook} stuck in my head and I can't get you out. what a nuisance. really want to lose this constant hand on my mouth when I try to be quiet and trap down these feelings that're brewing... brew in my right hand. I'd rather be tipsy than witness you standing against me in the past, it was iffy, but I can't go back and fix that so I'm drifting downwards, on downers and bong-hits. round of applause for this coward is not an option. the laughing stock of town is what I am lying in my bed and rainy days is always the climate lightning striking down for my mindless ways... baby, why couldn't it be fixed? wouldn't it be insignificant how things were before? I should burn for sure but, you holding on might hurt you more let's turn the course, forget the bridge, and take a flight instead fly into the sky. I pledge to do things right without the side effects.. of my selfish desires mixed into the pot, I pledge to not follow trends, but confide my effort time and time again and if you can't accept me pouring out to you, I understand I'll walk away from your life and let us be nothing... damn... {Switch} I think about you in my past time Know I always think about the last time Try to put the pieces together/ you said forever Try to put the pieces together/ Now I know better {Switch} I was thinking the other day/ thinking what could I say That could make things right/ take back all those fights I was thinking it needs to rain/ wash away all this pain Second chance in life/ swear I’ll do it right Know that I’m scared inside/ deny have to much pride Stand up no time to hide/ try to see the upside Always seem to collide/ why can’t I just provide Instead I’m just denied/ eye’s teary opened wide Laying here over thinking things/ look what thinking brings Sleepless nights starless skies/ stars in her eye’s Saying I wish I was her king/ wish that was my ring On her finger apologize/ so traumatized I was thinking the other day/ thinking I caused this pain How can I make it right/ when all we do is fight I was thinking about that may/ when the sky turned grey There wasn’t any light/ and you held me so tight {Alex-Ander} "Hold it tight" eventually means "let it go" Nothing lasts forever, we should've never said hello A moment to meet, eternity to say goodbye "So a heart full of worry is the way I'll die" Everything will be okay, someday, you got the potential to be alright You and I didn't connect, you be you, and I'm gonna move on with my life You said it in a sarcastic tone, you always knew you were better than me But I guess opposites don't attract 'cause you're on a different level than me So go ahead, sing your favourite hate songs and picture me But keep in the back of your head I'm not the only guy with negativity Maybe someday, I'll choose to be wise and finally go and take your advice For now, I'll do what I do best and live with this mistake for a life

I can’t keep fighting these demons/ I’m not dreaming I’m sick to my stomach/ sick I need to vomit Take me away got my reasons/ and I’m freezing It’s always a struggle/ with this empty wallet With these fucking old clothes/ fades and big holes No vacation I’m losing patience/ and no relations Bloody from this red rose/ red rose black crows This location my frustration/ no motivation I’m falling from the seams/ just follow my screams I’m breaking at my knees/ Hollow like my dreams I’m falling from the seams/ just follow my screams I’m taking what I need/ apollo let me bleed Drain until I can’t see/ body numb and pain free Hooked up to this I.V/ but I didn’t agree To have these tubes in me/ injecting this morphine Looks like it’s morphing me/ but please just mourn for me Take me away from the puppet-string stage-crew Suddenly before I am a cut-up winged angel Love and faith made in a safe place where the rain fades and the spirits get another great breakthrough Hardships and November fog, mist, and dead leaves Broken skull and I walk with it empty Thoughts of a less greedy swamp filled with envy Mornings are heavy for these zombies with red teeth Sink through for a sweet taste Kings rule with a mean face They hate you in your sleep-state evil's little weak slave And I'm fiendin' to awake them all Staying calm & creeping to erase the dark Light a candle and strike the vandal Detangle the Matrix and fight the battle..