[Verse l]

Dear diary this is for me, Understand this just see
See I'm my father's first son, born in the year 91
And then in 93 they had another one, my brother we always fought
in 95 my parents broke up there done, they didn't love us so I thought
So i thought life's hard I can't have fun, So hatred was all tied in a not
I was angry at the world, I was angry at all of them
97 they gave it a shot, but it hardly lasted, time it just passed
Things almost didn't seem real, And it's something hard to feel
At that age how can you mange or deal,
I think this is why I can't trust people
Like I'm a package getting shipped back a fourth
Living out of this fucking suitcase, turning into a fucking nutcase
Moving every year place to place, So alone and trap in this cage
How do you deal with all of that rage, So alone and there's no escape
How do you deal with that at that age, how do you find your happy place
Like my mom had a new guy, and my dad had a new girl
I hated him and that place no lie, I had a hard time accepting it
Dad worked 9 days away and home for 5
Sometimes when he'd leave I'd just cry
Mom worked in a different town, so it was hard she wasn't around
Babysat my brother most nights, we couldn't seem to not fight
I think back and don't know why, maybe cuz I was alone and shy
Never really could make friends, couldn't even make up pretends
So I just got lost in video games, stayed up all night and play them
Say I was sick and couldn't go to school, but really it's cuz people are cruel
I think this is why I don't get close to people
I don't believe in relationships, just one night stands and trips
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[Verse ll - Preformed by EvolXYZ]

I try to blame you, as much as I can.but brutally and honestly, im not the same man.i tell everyone around, that it's all your fault.but truthfully, i gotta be the only one with doubt.With the wool over my eyes, it's kinda hard to act surprised.No point to lie anymore, we've met demise.It's gettin' hard to try, but ea-sier to write.i look inside your eyes, and see the darkest night.I thought I was Jaded, but look at what I've done.We coulda made it, if it wasn't for what you've become.You're tellin me, that I'm not the type your after.I guess it took three years to erase the, laughter.Pain and agony, yeah that's what I'm made of.Cliche as it is, I think there's still time to save us..but you just gave up, with no chance to make up.i hate these break ups, and the time it takes up...You'll never be what I need, and vice versa.You gotta prove in my life that your times worth somthnSee we're arguin' on a regular basis.It's like we have to fight every other day, shit...I can't take this, and I don't wanna hurt you more.The damage has been done, and both of our hearts have been torn.Suicidolizing every thought get's lame quick,But you just wait, till the day shifts and pain hits.I can't lie to you anymore, but i still choose to do so, and get pricked by lifes thorn.I'm done, and I'm tired of the contemplating.I'll let you win for the first time, I'll stop debatingPain and agony, yeah that's what I'm made of.Cliche as it is, I think there's still time to save us..but you just gave up, with no chance to make up.i hate these break ups, and the time it takes up..
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