Hook I’m in love with this- beautiful pain Can’t get enough of this- beautiful pain Write a script with this- beautiful pain I can’t fight off this- beautiful pain Verse 1 To me it’s all so beautiful/ this pain I wish I could be more useful/ where’s jane? I’m truthful/ which in turn is brutal-excusable Approval/ it’s not meet not mutual- not suitable Envision empty space/ A memory not a place A distant thought/ caught on this camera With open arms I embrace/ all of my own mistakes And there’s a lot/ fought my demons away A poem within a letter/ dots and scratched words Melodies soft lips/ read between the lines An omen for some good measure/ a speech all slurred remedies and scripts/ your missing the signs Your caving into the pressure/ vision is all blurred Falling for there tricks/ just a step behind This beautiful pain is pleasure/ Sit here embrace it As they throw these sticks/ stones but I’ll be fine Hook[2] I can’t let go of this- beautiful pain I’m all alone with this- beautiful pain It’s to the bone all this- beautiful pain I can’t let go of this- beautiful pain Verse[2] Tragically a tragedy/ mastered the craft - passionately Reality broken vanity/ fractured the ego - insanity Listen. We can open up scars/ and pick at our old wounds Or stare up at the stars/ move on and get tattoos It can all fall apart/ after so much abuse We all think were so smart/ but care of others views Don’t appreciate art/ drowning in all the booze Cause we can’t hit restart/ and for some that’s still news That needles razor sharp/ can’t hide away that bruise Mentally damaged/ just some scar tissue Years of all this abuse/ caused all by me Steadily bandage/ repair the issue Take a walk in my shoes/ see if your happy cause..... Hook[2] I can’t let go of this- beautiful pain I’m all alone with this- beautiful pain It’s to the bone all this- beautiful pain I can’t let go of this- beautiful pain Hook I’m in love with this- beautiful pain Can’t get enough of this- beautiful pain Write a script with this- beautiful pain I can’t fight off this- beautiful pain

Always felt like a struggle/ four walls and confined Fuck up always in trouble/ With hate on my mind So pour me up a double/ until I go blind Numb and can only mumble/ wake up to sun shine Birds singing head hurting/ another black out night words shrinking bed certain/ another cracked out fight Ashamed with no curtain/ stutter vodka and sprite Chained down a burden/ to late to rewrite Passed out in washrooms/ How much alcohol did I consume Pardon me/ how do I get home Smell the stripper perfume/ I don’t even need to assume Pardon me/ why am I so alone Always talking to myself/ put it on the shelf I can deal with it later/ wait till it’s safer Another shirt covered in puke/ it’s stained so fuck it I’m sorry I’m not perfect/ she asked “was it worth it” ---------------------------------------------- I just got caught up in the moment I was trying but I was broken I just got caught out in the open Stuck out here and my clothes are soaking ------------------------------------- My clothes smell like booze/ and the pillow does to I can just hit snooze/ wake in the afternoon Look another bruise/ I guess I’m just a goon Surrounded by blues/ those late nights and full moons Another drunken argument/ who even started it Light up another cigar/ ready for the bar Kick me out of the apartment/ And I’m apart of it It’s another late night scar/ there goes another star Sleeping in the hatchback/ I just want to scream Another panic attack/ nightmares and no dreams Another tragic track/ just imagine that Another panic attack/ just imagine that I can’t even make a fist/ I’m always pissed Me and her starting to drift/ can’t coexist Caught me with some other lips/ it’s another twist I guess scratch it off of the list/ we caused a rift Look it’s a yelling match/ your crying so am I Shock can we start from scratch? No cause you only lie Was to fast to attached/ Let’s pause and think why We crashed time to detach/ so I’ll say my goodbye Surprise it didn’t last/ me you and that glass Gin and tonic fuck draft/ I’m just chasing that ass Your always so smashed/ and I’m just as trashed Thin and mostly a blast/ especially on hash It got out of control/ and no one noticed Another puff another bowl/ it was so hopeless It got out of control/ and no one noticed All seems so long ago/ one of my lowest Moments I was broken/ tried to repair it all I was so soft spoken/ all I could do is fall Wait for that text or call/ no matter how small It got out of control/ and no one noticed

Verse one(Performed by Switch) I can see all of my doubts/ nightmares and terrors It reveals my weakest points/ shows my weakest joints And I can’t see any outs/ look at my errors All I do is disappoint/ it’s so annoying Knowing you can’t do anything/ the foundations gone I’m so torn/ where do I begin slowing down the monster within/ creations my spawn Demons born/ one to many sins This mirror shows all my flaws/ my darkest moments Not clear it won’t show what I saw/ I’m just so hopeless So please hold this/ vanish into the mist Show what cold is/ bandage all of the slits And all these cracks get bigger/ the frame collects dust It has the worn out sticker/ Look on in disgust I’ll burn another picture/ it’s time to adjust To late to reconsider/ and I’ve had enough Hook(Performed by Notebook) I try to hold on(try to hold on) But I’m not strong(but im not strong) When I hang by thread, they don’t know that I’m dead Second verse(Performed by Lady Essence) Im The spot light at the center of the galaxy- The first picture when you enter in the gallery- So when you stare in me and notice all my fallacies- Keep my frame aligned with pain and pride, and try to balance me- Im only human, My pallett is an array of color- Dark and bright I spark the light, and then I hang for others- I letchu in on every flaw, with no angles covered- View it in raw, like you were god, watchin angels suffer- And thats the gift of every artist and the curse too- Live for being honest show the audience your worst view- And let them take it in, and feel the thrill of that- Knowing theres nothing real as that, break it so could build it back- I feel the killers trap inside me when Im silent though- My only hope is rhyming, Im shining until its time to go- So, muster up all of your courage, show the fear in you- Bare it to the souls who never know just what is dear to you-

Verse one It wasn’t that long ago/ don’t remember Maybe when we first had snow/ Late December Was minus twenty below/ crazy weather And ice all over the road/ Her name Heather Coming from a late night show/ Should know better Her kids are waiting at home/ there her treasure It’s dark and she can’t see/ lights are on high beams Conditions are extreme/ she’s falling asleep I can picture the scene/ I can hear her scream Wakening from her dream/ couldn’t intervene I couldn’t stop that driver/ beside her Drunk with the beer in his hand/ he ran I Couldn’t put out that fire/ a fighter Both crashed and he slammed/ a van Hit but was just minor/ survivor One he can’t even stand/ well damn verse two Daughters looking out the window/ watching the wind blow Hurricane snow/ You know Daughters looking out the window/ watching the wind blow With no info/ what show She should be asleep/ eye’s closed on the pillow There fixed to the street/ but her moms been killed though So now talk is cheap/ this will be a new low This wound will be deep/ and she doesn’t even know The son can see the lights/ they can hear the sirens Coming from the horizon/ the house was all silence It’s all so surprising/ police look like giants Said they found the license/ of a Heather Ryan They grab there devices/ cause he must be lying But it’s a real crisis/ police said drunk driving Something to do with ice/ with both the cars sliding Took both of there life's/ and they both fell down crying verse 3 It was a three car collision/ said the officer Weather made for some bad vision/ a hug he offered Drunk but he started the ignition/ it was there father You could see the son just stiffen/ it was a slaughter Things where on the rocks/ he started drinking a lot Shot after shot/ whiskey and whatever In the car no stops/ already had his mug shot Caught but forgot/ and he should know better He slide and they hit/ and damaged another He got out and ran/ he killed his own lover Catch me if you can/ slice just like butter Got crushed by the van/ found in the gutter Two kids and no parents/ no reassurance With nothing to inherit/ Both lost and confused And it’s so apparent/ all over the news Two kids and no parents/ all cause of some booze

She was ready to settle/ the bags were all packed He was looking for a rental/ he left behind a crack They weren’t on the same level/ love is what you subtract When your dealing with the devil/ until you just snap Attack back. My love/ I’m truly sorry I betrayed you I know/ Please just go Mirror fear. Just trust/ broken to pieces I betrayed you. I’ll go/ Please don’t show All these open wounds/ deep tissue is exposed You can see the love and hate/ all that is great But I’m so confused/ sleep till it all unfolds I may never even wake/ not in this state And maybe I led you on/ maybe I don’t know Because I was always gone/ Always felt alone And maybe I led you on/ Maybe I don’t know You always seemed so strong/ Always in control All these lonely hearts/ all these lonely souls All these broken parts/ and all these unknowns I said. I was feeling a little lonely......would you join me? See this was all new for me/ trust love and hugs And I opened up so much/ you where so smug She had me down on one knee/ she was my drug I had to feel her soft touch/ this hole I’ve dug All rainbows and sunshine/ This clock and that time I suppose it’s all mine/ Let’s talk that july That red rose and your line/ Let’s walk but I’m fine And all those bad replies/ when I said goodbye We’re just two lonely hearts/ torn with these broken souls Nightmare thoughts/ Nightmares that I fought I’m just all broken parts/ with to many missed goals Nightmare thoughts/ I care I guess not And maybe I led you on/ maybe I don’t know Because I was always gone/ Always felt alone And maybe I led you on/ Maybe I don’t know You always seemed so strong/ Always in control Can we call it a tie? I’m tired I’m all burnt out Endless fights/ circles left and right I said my last goodbye/ I’m tired I’m all burnt out Vengeance right? senseless in hindsight And maybe I led you on/ maybe I don’t know Take my hand come along/ I can’t let you go And they’ll say it’s all wrong/ let’s give them a show And maybe I led you on/ but I felt alone

Always a few behind/ lost trapped in time Hallways weren’t very kind/ cost me in my prime Holiday’s I’ll be fine/ toss me another dime All days won’t always shine/ soft from the inside A failure/ I feel like I failed her Could never take that step/ move or take that leap Behavior/ lost I couldn’t save her It was a head on wreck/ the impact to deep Not major/ so I couldn’t make her Still don’t get my respect/ until then no sleep I think about it/ sit and laugh at my past Question all this shit/ I’m looking through the glass Switch don’t mention it/ mom I’m skipping this class Say no then I’ll quit/ I made my rocky path A youth all wasted/ drunk from all of the draught I never made it/ everything at once crashed And I feel so confined/ trapped in this big city Wish I could hit rewind/ surrounded in this pity Everyone’s so unkind/ but girl you’re so pretty The hate builds in the mind/ and we’re always to busy Always said what I thought/ but never stopped to think Broken friendships/ covered in these lies I can’t move from this spot/ stuck and about to sink So I guess that’s it/ I’m all out of tries Always said what I thought/ but never stopped to think There’s so much tension/ anger on the rise I reminisce a lot/ connect the missing link Lots of detentions/ and cold nights outside I feel like a disappointment/ the bars to high I’ll never feel this enjoyment/ without the rye I’m always hearing these voices/ I don’t know why There saying this is all pointless/ so then goodbye It just keeps falling apart/ spend my nights alone And she keeps calling my heart/ bend till I break bones And it’s never good enough/ but just in my eyes I’m always a little tough/ I’m my own demise It’s just me myself and I/ I don’t want to fight There isn’t any one nearby/ it’s dark out tonight And they say I’m the weird guy/ maybe there all right Who cares with these blood shot eyes/ shady with no sight I feel like there’s no time/ I’ve run out it vanished The hills to tall to climb/ I’m stuck on this planet I’m bitter filled with hate/ but please don’t you panic I’ll just say that it’s fate/ and someone just planned it It’s fine I’ll say it’s great/ shot me from a cannon Let me fly and just wait/ I want to be stranded Threw to much on the plate/ now I’m barely standing It looks like it’s to late/ I guess it’s my ending

I was dreaming last night/ woke up in sweat I heard screaming bad fight/ the sheets all wet And I’m bleeding alright/ looks like it’s set No real meaning to life/ or just not yet Hope. I know- where. to go When. It’s time- to leave the show Wake up and I forget/ things that I shouldn’t Let’s play russian roulette/ said that I wouldn’t I lie only to myself/ don’t know why I cry but I don’t need help/ let me try I’m changing slowly/ Improving my ways Don’t need to hold me/ Cause I’ll be okay You could say it’s a new leaf/ that I’ve turned Because of a dream/ remember it clear You could say it’s a relief/ that I’ve learned I’m looking up stream/ have nothing to fear I was just daydreaming I just wanted to escape/ just for the day Just needed to get away/ please don’t invade I was just daydreaming I went for a little trip/ I imagined it Just me and some peace/ silence I was at ease I’m not about to jump ship/ you couldn’t fathom it Looking for a release/ didn’t want all these Issues. There haunting me/ just a lot bad memories Close my eyes/ fade away silently Tissues. Right beside me/ I have no more energy Say goodbye/ so much anxiety It’s not that I hate you/ I’m disappointed Honestly I’m not sure/ there’s no enjoyment I try to be mature/ but hear these voices I’ll dream away my days/ cause this is pointless My face to the pillow/ a crack in the window Let the mind fade away/ and my eyes get heavy Let the mind just escape/ I think that I’m ready Let it become it’s shape/ Going in hold steady (Eyeconic) A cloud follows me wherever I go, it's a Strange feeling/ Stuck in the rain I wish I could change seasons/ See I've been smiling while I watch the pain leaving/ I've also been Day dreaming for the same reason/ One minute I'm in class, the other minute lurking in my own mind/ Opening locked doors and bursting into old times/ Pictures of skipping class and searching for a hope line/ Memories of studying and working till it's home time/ I day dream to recharge my pack of some batteries/ I Day dream to the point of losing track of reality/ Day dreaming is like a wavy drug, the safety's off/ So once I lose track just don't wake me up/ I don't need to speak to a owner of the shrooms/ Day dreaming is the only way to put a stoner on the moon/ See, I'm acting like a loner I assume/ Just Leave me alone at the table in the corner of the room/