I catch myself dreaming a lot/ spaced out in a parking lot
I can hear these screaming and shots/ placed in this damn melting pot
Everyones all scheming I’m lost/ Faced with this task all I got
Can’t save what I’m seeing lets pause/ disgrace lost in all these thoughts

Feels like I’m moving backwards/ And everyday my back hurts
I know I can’t take back words/ especially all those bad words
Drunk texts and all those bad slurs/ Cause I use to have mad blurs
Black outs and some sad spurts/ long nights and lots of black dirt

Trying to be a better me/ so I wrote a letter to me
Said I can take the weather see/ I need some more effort homie
Try to glide like a feather free/ Can’t take all this pressure hold me?
Not looking for a tether be/ looking to be together G

See I’m not getting any younger/ so I’m feeling pretty lost
They say age is just a number/ don’t need any pity tossed
my way I’m still full of hunger/ and that’s not the hippie pot
I’ll never forget that summer/ in that shitty city spot

I’m feeling pretty talentless/ even though I know what talent is
Study everything an analysis/ I’m just wondering what your angle is
It’s all about balancing it/ about how your handling it
Not about how big the palace is/ I’m turning hard just like my callus

I’ve seen what a coward is/ so I know I can’t get soft
I’ve seen what the power did/ and see once it was all lost
Know the meaning of an hour is/ and what it really cost
I’m feeling pretty powerless/ feeling useless in this spot

Working a minimum wage job/ forgot how shit the pay was
They wonder why I’m such a snob/ no food on the table no buzz
Living in this basement can’t drop/ any lower then i was
Is don’t know just want on top/ look at what this money does

Feels like I’m moving backwards/ And everyday my back hurts
I know I can’t take back words/ especially all those bad words
Drunk texts and all those bad slurs/ Cause I use to have mad blurs
Black outs and some sad spurts/ long nights and lots of black dirt

I have so many goals/ to many I don’t really know
I’m just another lost soul/ theres plenty but still have hope
Thanks to Mary jane bowls/ I’m twenty four but feel old
I’m trying to find my role/ feel empty and I feel cold


Feels like I’ve been down this road/ who sent me down here before
not sure I was in cruise mode/ need to wake up need to soar
Need to fight I’m still bruised core/ need to keep going need more
I still feel like I’m confused poor/ thoughts running i can’t ignore

Everyones growing up progressing/ I’m trying but can’t seem to
I’ll admit it’s a little depressing/ cause I swear that I mean to
Listen this is just me expressing/ i swear I still don’t need you
This is me doing some addressing/ sorry if my pain bleeds through

Spills out I’m just being true/ trust me I can see you
True colors I see right through/ it’s a very clear view
cause your eyes are so bright blue/ don’t need to be near you
it’ll make me want to fight you/ keep my distance like peers do

I mean yes I’m all over you/ and it looks like your a loner too
Original not a poser boo/ this life is a roller coaster true
Hippie getting stones what I do/ and this song has some closure few
hoping for a four leaf clover knew/ i’d need some this exposure blew

Feels like I’m moving backwards/ it’s like I’m sixteen again
Sorry for all the bad words/ sorry for what was said back then
Sorry for all my mad spurts/ sorry that it can’t be mended
Sorry for all my sad blurs/ I’m sorry that’s how it ended

Feels like I’m moving backwards/ And everyday my back hurts
I know I can’t take back words/ especially all those bad words
Drunk texts and all those bad slurs/ Cause I use to have mad blurs
Black outs and some sad spurts/ long nights and lots of black dirt